Yesterday was my birthday and on these “special days” the absent presence of my loved ones is prominent.
Your absent presence
Settles deep within me
Filtering my blood
Pumping oxygen
Breathing life into memory
Your eyes still sparkle
In my reverie
Your love will never leave
And yet
I stumble
Lost in an unknown landscape
You were the keeper of my secrets
The jewellery store
Where all my precious gems nestled
On the blue velvet of your tenderness
Some days your absence
Is stronger than your presence

About triciabertram

I have written all my life. Writing helps me to make sense of a world I often don’t understand. Poetry is my supreme solace, closely followed by literature and music. When my son ended his life in 1999 I embarked on the most difficult journey of my life, my grief journey. To survive in this unknown, harsh landscape I had to write. It was for me, the only way I could even begin to move forward. Then in 2009 my darling husband died suddenly and so my journey continues. I write about other issues but because of my life experience, grief and death are continuing themes in my writing life. In our culture I believe there is a fear of death, an inability to accept the inevitability of our mortality, and this creates enormous difficulties for the bereaved and those around them. I have begun this blog in the hope I will create a small ripple in the pond of fear that is currently drowning the reality of death and grief. I will continue to skim the stones of my truth, watch them bounce, and see how many ripples I can make.

Posted on December 9, 2011, in Poems. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. Belated happy birthday, Tricia!

    “The jewellery store,
    Where all my precious gems nestled”

    Beautiful imagery.

  2. You are strong , gifted, and have an amazing awareness of yourself. A depth many of us will never know. Your work makes me proud to be your sister. You inspire me not to give up , but to soldier on and be the best me I can be. . Luv ya sis.

  3. Thanks so much Polly darling. Your loving support has helped me to keep going. Luv ya right back.

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